You are Enough to Me

You have always been my inspiration.

My only inspiration. When I first found you on IG I was floored by the things that you did.

I didn’t see your face. Nor did I know your name. But what I did see was someone who, despite his generous skill, was ridiculously humble.

You never flaunted your skill or accomplishments, and you never used that skill to elevate your status.  That one character, humility, was so noticeable, because it’s not a character trait that most people have the ability to claim for themselves.

But you do.

That humility was far more than just surface – it is a sign of deeper emotional intelligence. That’s what makes me like you for deeper reasons – for who you are, rather than what you have the ability to do for people. Your humility makes you likable.

Likable people are humble because they know that they aren’t better than anyone else but wise enough to know that they are different from the rest.

Humility makes someone likable for who they are instead of what they can do for people.

I was so fascinated by you then, and all this time later, you still continue to fascinate me with your skills, your talents, creativity, and your work ethic. The moment I saw you with milk that day on IG, I was floored. I followed you intently.

I was so fascinated by everything you did.

Your strength of faith, your humor, your positivity, your humor, and you. You. I never even saw you. I had no idea who you were. But I loved following you… so much more than you will ever realize.  Over time, I grew more fascinated by you – there was so much I saw in you. There were things I saw in you that you probably didn’t and still don’t see in yourself.

You are undeniably creative, you have a charming personality, a great work ethic, and you are a ray of positivity in a world that is increasingly negative. Moreover, you ran your own business, and you did it successfully – what would be a challenge for most is something you did remarkably well.

You were always so adventurous, you loved nature – you found things that the common eye can’t recognize. A single flower in the mist of a sea of dirt, and gravel. Wind, shifting the grass along the water in Red River. I felt like I had met another version of myself, in the opposite gender.

For the first time in my entire life, I felt like I had met someone who understood me completely and someone I could open up to.

You always say to me… “I hope I can be everything you are looking for in a person.”

You are more than everything I could ever imagine in a person. I think about you constantly. There’s never a second of the day that I’m not thinking about what you are doing, how you are feeling, and things going through your mind.

When I met you, you made me question everything I’ve known. Feeling your love made me realize I haven’t ever known a love so real. It frustrated me to know that you are and will be the ONLY real love I have had and may ever have.

You are a once in a lifetime love.

I never get tired of following you, thinking about you, spending time with you. I could forever make cards, every day for years, and never tire of being hopeful that they mean something to you. The love I have for you never fades. It always resurfaces.

Even in your absence, you inspire me, motivate me and encourage me in ways you will never understand. You have shone a light on my scars and resurfaced emotional wounds that I know I need to address within myself to heal. I only hope I can do the same for you.

I see you, trying. Every day. But yet you still aren’t sure if you are doing it right, because nobody ever did much for you. But I see you trying and and I want you to know something.

You are good enough.

Even on the days that you think you are’t enough, you are good enough to me. You hold yourself to unreasonably high standards of perfection, making it completely possible that you will fall short. And on the days the you fall into self sabotage, and your mind tells you that you aren’t enough for anyone, you are enough for me.

I see you , in the heart and I see you in the soul. I see all of you and I love you. I love you and respect you in those times that you are the most vulnerable.  I am so grateful you are in my life. I’m even more grateful that we crossed paths. Your caring heart and gentle hands, your strength and resilience displays the things you have endured – you have encouraged me to do things that I would have never had the courage to try without you.

You have helped me appreciate things that I had always taken for granted – you have helped me reinforce my interest in enjoying the beauty of the smallest things around us.

Thank you for being so caring and so kind. You make me unbelievably happy. Even in times of absence and silence, I am grateful for you. Knowing you has brought me a joy that I never knew before – my life is just so much better with you in it, and I know that it will always be. I can only hope that I can be the kind of person you have dreamed of, and the person you deserve to have.

There is no one else with whom I want to be.

You have changed my life so completely.

I have always believed in a deep, wholehearted love that strikes the core of my soul; I believed that there is someone out there who could love me deeply, soulfully and passionately every day until the day that I am taken from this world.

I believed that there was, out there somewhere, the kind of love that filled me with joy, inspiration, passion and purity. Pure, unadulterated, unfiltered love.

I never thought I’d could ever find that love.  But I found it in you. You are worth fighting for. I want to show you that I will go to the ends of the earth to pursue you, show you my gratitude in words, actions and in my daily prayer life. I want that someone to understand that I am serious about the capacity of my emotions.

I want you to know that you are that person.

I want you to know that you are enough to me. You are the man of my dreams. I want you to know I am constantly sending you my love and compassion. I want you to let go of the fear that you aren’t good enough, or that I will find someone else. I want you to let go of the fear that someone else would make me happy.

Nobody else will do what you do for me.

I want you to trust that the love I have is genuine. I will never give up on you. Maybe you can’t see it, but I want you to know that there is no reason to fear that you are not enough for me.  I want you to know that I love you… I have loved you for a long time and I will always love you. I admire you for not giving up on me or yourself. I admire your courage, your strength, your creativity, personality, passion, zest for life, your generosity, your patience, and your humility.

Only a small fraction of people have the courage to self reflect, strive for personal growth, and to exit their comfort zone for things that are bigger and better than they could have ever imagined.

I have always wanted a parter who was special, who was different from the rest. Someone who matched my quirkiness.

Then you show up.

You are the man of my dreams, and the greatest blessing in my life.