Then just let me go.
I truly believe in love. Not the fly by infatuous feeling that may come and go, but a deep, whole hearted love that strikes the core of your soul. While it’s hard to find, I firmly believe that out there someone is someone who can love me deeply, soulfully, and passionately, every day, until that day when they are taken from this world.
The kind of love that fills our heart with joy, passion, inspiration, and most of all, purity. Pure, unadulterated, unfiltered love.
In a time when dating apps are gaining in popularity, and the rise of social media has women everywhere posing for selfies, videos, and reels filled with face and head shots, body shots and magic quotes, I’m not that type of person. I’m introverted… very private in nature. I have walls up that are higher than my head, cemented together with 10,000 layers to make them as bomb-proof as possible. I am not the kind of person who is tolerant of half-assed relationships, shallow flings, small talk, or immature hook ups.
I have never, in my life, been that way.
When it comes to love, I want someone who is all in- someone to match my energy.
In terms of loving someone deeply and passionately, I’m always going to give my absolute all. You will never question your place in my life – I will give it my all, and then extra on top of that. I have a har time trusting – so if you do come into my life and divulge your secrets and vulnerabilities, I will trust you with mine. It takes a considerable person to get that far in my life… only one person has.
You have to be willing to show me that you are serious about the capacity of your emotions.
I will never stop short of showing me that you are worth fighting for. In fact, I will go to the ends of the earth to pursue you and win you over – I will forever show you my gratitude through actions, words, and in my daily prayer life. I want someone else to put in that same effort to go after me and earn my love – show me that you are just as willing to pursue me with the same actions, words and in your prayer life.
I don’t want to be someone’s second choice, some second rate option… or play around with accepting breadcrumbs instead of the real deal.
I’m not up for playing hard to get, and I certainly don’t want to chase someone for their attention. Be a proper adult and communicate, instead of walling off your emotions, ghosting me or failing to respond to basic messages. I can have some empathy, but eventually the energy to continue those games will drain me and cause me to stop communicating altogether. I don’t have time nor do I enjoy being led on to think I’m a super amazing person one minute, then having to beg for attention the next – I can’t say anyone else would appreciate that tactic in someone they may have the chance to pursue a relationship with. To always wonder if you are important to the other person is to constantly walk on eggshells.
Love..
Is a sacred feeling. It’s action that is taken from the heart. I don’t want to participate in the lowliness of false love , fleeting mixed feelings, uncertainty, or shallow emotions. I can’t become intimate with someone I don’t have a deep emotional connection with… I need something deeper, something real.
Love is one of the most incredibly satisfying feelings that you could ever experience between you and another human being. But it also holds demands and responsibilities. I need someone that understands that love requires sacrifice, it requires work. It must be earned – after all, nobody is entitled to love. It’s a conscious choice.
I work hard for everything that I want in life. I don’t like to depend on others to help, simply because to depend on others is to put yourself in a predicament of having to reciprocate. I want someone who understands these responsibilities as well. I am a the sole provider for my children. I won’t risk giving them anything less than they deserve.
I’m looking for something with substance.
And I want nothing less than someone’s genuine sincerity and effort.
I know that I am deserving of something more. I want to feel loved in a relationship. I don’t want to have to constantly question who or what I am to someone else. I want someone where I can feel safe and secure in their arms. I want someone who texts me Good Morning first thing when they wake up. I want someone who helps get rid of my fears, insecurities – someone who respects me. Someone who will go out of his way to see me, even if only for a small window of time.
I am tired with having to cope with the disappointment of someone constantly standing me up and not following through. I am tired of putting my trust in people who truly don’t care about me anymore. And I am even more tired of disappointed with people who don’t respect me.
I’ve done that far too long. Despite having dealt with people like this I will always go out of my way to make the other person feel loved and appreciated, in ways that don’t allow room for them to question how I feel.
Most of all, I want to be with someone who prioritizes me and the relationship, someone who doesn’t make me feel like I’m just some fallback, or option that can be tapped into fin their spare time. Make me feel like you are serious about me.
I want to be able to find someone who’s words match his actions. I want someone who will do whatever it takes to make me feel secure in my love for him.
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