You’re not growing – you’re sleeping.
A large part of you is made to match perfectly the matrix code – it gives you happiness, validation, and security.
You aren’t “truly” unhappy.
You will forever experience that continual split.
On one side of the split, you are well adapted to the matrix life – it gives you a sense of belonging.
On the other hand, your soul and heart are silenced and muffled.
You are programmed for sacrifice – as if you are forbidden to allow the expansion of your heart and craving for love. So to soothe the pain of this renunciation, you put yourself at the service of others.
You create duties for yourself to justify that you can’t – and in doing so, you give up your heart’s calling even if you are somewhat wide awake.
I understand and see clearly through this psychological mechanism – I know you can make decisions for your own life.
At some point you might choose yourself and give yourself the chance to meet someone beautiful who is available – especially if you have a thirst for life and love. But more than likely you won’t ever truly wake up, you won’t ever truly reach your full potential.
You won’t ever truly find that beautiful love that you had the opportunity to have.
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